First Round of Chemotherapy

My first day of treatment and all I can think about is that I can’t imagine how my 5 year old Elena was able to endure this. How can any child endure this? But they do it day after day, with so much bravery. Even more appreciation for all of the cancer rebels out there!

Posted by Cancer Rebel on Saturday, April 4, 2020
My first day of treatment and all I can think about is that I can’t imagine how my 5 year old Elena was able to endure this. How can any child endure this? But they do it day after day, with so much bravery. Even more appreciation for all of the cancer rebels out there!

Hi guys, it’s Brooke Desserich. I’m the co-founder of The Cure Starts Now and, now, unintentional spokesperson for Cancer Rebel. Three weeks ago I was diagnosed with highly aggressive breast cancer and I got something new, my first scar, my first permanent reminder of what I’m going through. I got my port placed yesterday. In the current COVID environment, I had to walk into that hospital all alone, they wouldn’t allow visitors. So, I had to go through this whole process all by myself.  I know I had so much support from my family and my friends and all of you which made it amazing. It was still difficult to face it all by myself. 

But truly the hard part was that this port was the first thing that really connected me with my daughter Elena’s own brain cancer battle and what first started me in this cancer research realm. I remember when she got her port placed because that was such a permanent thing and it truly has always stuck in my brain. And when they said, “Okay, you need a port,” that just really brought it back home to me that her battle and my battle are connected. Somewhere in there I knew it was but that was the real trigger point to make me connect our battles.

So, I got this port placed and immediately they started seven hours of chemotherapy, 11 different drugs went through my veins. And it was so surreal to feel it, to taste it, to feel it touching every inch of my body down to my toes, down through everything. And when I finished the process and Keith picked me up afterwards and I was safe in the car with him and we were driving home, that was the point where I truly broke down and lost it.  Because of these kids. 

To be a kid and to have to go through what I just went through and they do it with such bravery and strength. I can’t even imagine being a kid like Elena, five years old feeling all of that. Total loss of control of your body, I mean it feels like something’s invading. And I totally know that it’s good and it’s killing the cancer but the only thought that kept going through my mind was that these kids have to face this. I’m 40 some years of experience and wisdom, but these poor kids who are so young and not ready for something like that and to be foisted into that situation.  I lost it.

It truly makes what I do since Elena passed so poignant as well.  Even though I have breast cancer I am still fighting for these kids. Yesterday was the point that really solidified why we need to keep supporting these kids. Because I can’t even imagine being a five-year-old and being hooked up for seven hours- being pumped full of drugs. So, I will continue to fight for kids while I’m still fighting for myself. We just, we need better options and we need more research and we need to help these kids.

Number one, I want to thank everybody for your motivation, for your sweet words. You guys are amazing, keep it coming. Also keep sharing this website. I’m going to continue to share my very real and raw story with you guys and the very funny parts too.

So, before I leave I want to share. Of course they give you three pages of side effects that could happen with these chemotherapy drugs. I want to share the two funniest ones that I’ve already had. The first one is citrus tastes like concrete to me. I went through breakfast pretty good and then when I got to my orange flavored vitamin C pill I had a pretty violent reaction to that one. Citrus tastes like concrete, now I know.

And my second one is, much to the entertainment of my family, I have no depth perception. So, I proceeded to drop at least three things in the first minute of being in the kitchen. So, my family has relegated me to only touching plastic ware at this point, for the good of our dishware.

So, again, thank you so much for listening to my story and I’ll try to keep sharing and please, please keep sharing this page and sharing the importance of helping everybody who is battling cancer. Thanks.

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